He 'broke down' when he was reading the message he wrote about feeling that everything was pointless
He'd make for a poor poker player because I saw that coming from a mile away.
Generally speaking when you are conjuring up an emotional breakdown on camera, one does NOT want to give up the ghost that one is well on the way,
Lloyd: "Uhm, this is going to be hard to read... uhm, because..."
He was priming the pump for tears, because as a psychopath, tears do not come easily and only then when he is speaking about something he himself finds upsetting.
The fact that he visibly struggled for tears over alleged suicidal feelings leads me to believe they weren't even there and that WhatsApp text he was quoting from was in itself a play for attention and sympathy.
If those suicidal feelings were real he would have struggled to STOP the sobbing. Instead he could only manage a few brief bursts and lifted his finger so he could look at how his performance was going down in the live chat.